Blood And Sweat

The champion in me says "wait".
The fighter in me says "why?".
These exact same roads have been crossed time and time again.
My soul is searching for purpose, but I have lost part of my sight.
In the circle, there are no friends or enemies; just obstacles.
There are no lost loves, nor is there treason.
I am my own army, I am my own reason.
These iron thoughts have turned my fists into hammers,
My mind into stone.
I awoke today feeling empty, yet full of fuel.
The road to gold, is one walked alone.
My life is as rocky as the pavement,
My emotions run wild like the racing stallions.
No heart has earned more valor,
No eyes have seen this much failure.
My idea of sanity is pain.
Without pain, I am unreal.
One in the same,
A fiend to this game.

Chains and Anchors

The time was setting into my skull.
The date was embedded into my brain.
These days were a lot harder than I had imagined them to be,
And I have weighed in far more than the wait.
Though I am a face worth painting,
I cannot be a face worth for saving.
The ugly truths behind the eyes of a wolf,
The pains of a hunger so angry I cannot feel anything.
I have always been an impatient client of this world's ugly trended business.
There have been many times where scars became permanent,
While other wounds healed.
Some would call the ways of the flow different.
Perhaps this is emotion in motion,
How do you feel?
Still I remain in place,
Thinking of what next to say.
I am speechless for the world took my breathe away.
They took my passions,
They soiled my pride.
They beat me inside,
And the timing was right.
A citizen of need.
A governor of want.
The plague tried to swipe me,
To me it was just another day in the swamp.

A Train of Thought

I sit in my seat dreaming of things.
The way smells and sights used to be more than minute flings.
I sat around placing them all.
Any noise or sight would cause them to fall.
I could hear the waves of laughter in my ears,
But there were no children to be found.
No lives reaching out for a pause,
No questions about it, the drowning of sound.
I still sit there dreaming,
Walking through a fog.
A mist that took away the reality I lived in,
Placing me in a world of wild scenes and songs.
I sang to myself, then along with the wild.
They seemed extra quiet today,
Even with mouths wide open to see them screaming,
They were pleasantly mild.
Yet I still begin to dream again,
Walking to another mystery,
I lost myself today,
No place known in history.
No maps for guidance,
No footprints to follow.
I was lost in my mind.
I was lost in the time.
To stop now was cruel,
But the radio came on,
This was the end of that song,
The end of that day was near,
And I had twelve other places to wallow.
Could this be sorrow?
Perhaps the question will be answered tomorrow.

Broken Promises, Empty Pockets

These days in the recession as they so call it, have been nothing but a blur to most and most certainly crazy for others.

Banks raising interest on credit cards, charging overdraft fees for every single time your check deposited the day after of 30 minutes after closing.
Your cell provider making things more complicated while giving you the runaround wasting your time, money, and patience.

Where do we go when there are no more walls to lean against? No sidewalks or stoops to sit down on? No breathing room for me, or for you?

The problem in today's world is greed and well...a little more greed.
Our country became greedy, causing us to do the same almost as far as material things, and then bad bets lost credibility to our so called glorious system. We in turn lost our own credibility to keep a good reputation with wealth.

No one is fooled by these thieves. But we sank in and fooled ourselves.
Put things off, just like they wanted us to.
They made a bet with our money, lost it, and we are now paying for it.
Then we made the same bets, lost, and cried about it.

Banks all over have had system errors, causing you to waste your cellphone minutes to stay on the line for half hour. What about the only phone you could possibly have, the prepaid?
Then there's the few of us who knew the system well enough to use a land line, but at one time and one time only had to use the pre paid or cell phone to make the call and wasted 30 - 45 minutes just waiting for an answer to a possible overdraft fee or charge incurred for no reason, or bank error.

No matter how you look at this, we are in for a run.
No marathons here. Call it the treadmill that malfunctioned and wont turn off, and its going too fast for you to jump off and get to the plug.......
Exactly..


Savings are down.
Prices are up.
Morale is low.
Depression is high.

What do we do?

We do what we always do.

Devise a plan. Stick to it for a week. Switch it up to keep things shaking, and then find yourself against the pillows on the biggest couch to breathe and relax.

or..

Devise a plan, screw the plan, come up with a million dollar scheme and drain into a bigger hole, or possibly build a mound. How far could you take your efforts?

Point is. Everything's going down, but don't give up.
Fight for your money earned.
Start this new year with a plan that you know IS achievable.
Hook it up.
Run.
Bring your water bottle, too.
This time we ride the road.
Nature's original path.


And that's Real Talk.

Friend or Foe

You can go back and forth in your head about the haters and the fakers and the whoever.
Thinking back to Jay-Z's song "Friend or Foe" you really begin to see the clear view. We all go through the same things.

People come and go.
People pretend.
Some don't wont show.

Some who you never thought were even your friends, are closer than those you honestly thought were.


A quote from a reader...

"the goal in life shouldn't be to try and have as many friends as possible..

it should be finding good ppl..

ppl who wont f*ck u over..

ppl who will go out and beyond of their way for you."

People this is as true as the sky is the color it seems to be to you.
Remember each person who hurts you. You don't have to get them back, that'll happen regardless whether your there or not so be sure you don't get it back again just for being there, let it sort itself out.

The point is to know who will be there for the long run, not for the time being.
Those who might seem to wanna help you but only want to help themselves.

Be in mind, some don;t know right or wrong as far as what you see it, doesn't mean you have to compromise your morals. Be yourself. Follow your heart. Leave the excess baggage behind, no matter how much you wanted to bring it along. It just wasn't meant to be. Everything that is... will be. Promise.

And that's Real Talk.

The world spinning out of focus

Today we remember the days when things used to be simple.
Things were easier to maintain.
Life was fast, but not to the point where we forgot where the time went.
These days are short, but worth every second of every minute of every hour.

I beg you all to take a look at the years prior through photos, notes, crafts, or anything you have.
See where you've been.
What did you do different?
Who or What was the main focus?
What have you accomplished compared to this year?
Do you feel the same?
What are your plans for next year?

Finding Your Calling

We all work the same jobs, doing the same things on a daily.
What about those dreams we used to have about trying new things?
Moneys a little low so the spending on newer education is something you like to put on the back burner for the time being.
Not everything costs an entire degree.
Night schools allow you to have the same access to some of the same jobs that require degrees.
For instance, a technical certification.
You are certified to do the same job, if not better because of the intense training for only that field and not so much rounded on other ones that have nothing to do with your program.

How about Do-It-Yourself?
Did you know a good portion of people these days learn tricks of the trade through online courses?
What about articles that caught your interest?
No one says you need a degree, but it does open many more doors than not having one.
Some fields can't be taught.
Art, creativity, etc.
No matter the topic, there are basic grounds for everything unless you made it up last night.
Even being a photographer or painter, there are certain rules that will better you later on for all your rebellious ways about going around the system.

Believe me, the system is a pain but it is worth to know the basics.
Fundamentals will carry you much further than just humping on the boat and going full speed.

It's never too late to carry out your dreams.
If you want to be a rock star, get rid of the stage fright.
If you need music, but you have the lyrics... find a good band who needs direction.
Everything and anything is possible. Well flying cars aren't here yet, but they will be.

Some things you might have given up on, but it's never too late to get started.
No matter the age; young or old, there is still time to move onto something else.
The mind is too big despite it's size.
We only use a small percentage of its capacity.
If you want to learn how to juggle fire, now would be the time to start learning to juggle some tennis balls and slowly moving onto tennis balls on fire. Just hopefully not too soon, anything can happen with fire.

So do what you have to do, time is on the go and never stops for anyone.

Be everything you wished for, and start managing your way to become successful at it.

Time is borrowed and we never know what can happen so get on the move.

You don't have to be stuck anywhere. All you need is the motivation and spirit to get you moving.

Doing is a lot harder than talking about it.
Who says you have to leap?
Today focus on just finding out about the steps you can take to go somewhere else in your career path or mindset.
All it takes is a few words to get you hooked, and a few moves to get you out there.

The mind is the most powerful tool.
You can do anything.

And that's Real Talk.